Something A Little Crazy.

It has been a while. A couple of months I think? Well a lot has happened. My mood swings got worse, then suddenly better after reality hit me like a mac truck. I made a few bad decisions and a rather good one. I have now got a full-time job keeping me occupied. I’m a receptionist at an advertising agency. It’s really such an amazing job with very cool people.

But something last night send me into thinking mood again. An accident that has effected me in more ways then one. I have never really had the wake up call about driving. I have always driven a little too fast and a little too cocky. I was reckless, did silly things and put not only two of my best friends in danger, but also my only love. It has never occurred to me that what I was doing was wrong. It was always “having a little bit of fun”, but never did I stop to think about the consequences of my actions. I constantly say I could never imagine a life without my boyfriend, but that’s just it. I have put his life at risk more times than I care to admit. All because I was unaware of the situations I was causing.

Being a brand new green P plater, the whole of Australia watches me and assumes that I will cut them off, travel faster than the speed limit and act like a hoon. And don’t get me wrong, I have always thought the same. To me, they were idiots. But now I know why. None of them have been affected like the way I just have. To think that someone I knew and talked to, is now gone. No one will be able to talk to him again. He will never tell his sisters or his parents that he loves them. Never get a chance to grow up and enjoy all the experiences that I will. It shakes me to my core.

I’m sorry that it took this long for me to realise. That it took something on this scale to open my eyes. Cars are not just travelling machines, they are death. Death waiting to happen. Many of us escape with our lives, and sometimes everyone else’s. But there are a whole lot of us that don’t escape. We are the ones damaged by it. When you get into a car, stop and think, am I ready to put my life and everyone I loves life at risk? Please just think. Use your minds. No one deserves that phone call or knock at the door.

Rest In Peace William Perrott. You have touched my heart.