Something has happened in my life. Lets just say a small catalyst.
I am seriously rethinking my whole life.
The first question I ask myself.
1. Who?
I have never had a best friend. I know I like to say people are, but to me they and I are simply good friends that share a lot in common with me.
Who is that person to go everywhere with me and have those girly moments? I have no one like that. I have never come across that one person that I feel I can tell my life story without judgement or regret.
I feel alone.
Completely.
I want someone I can call in the middle of the night to talk about my life with. But I guess life plays out like that huh?
There is a best friend for everyone. Except me. I guess I deserve it. I haven't really been the most understanding or compassionate person in my life.
That's that. When I find that someone that knows my life story, I'll let you all know. I guess it's my trust issues. We'll see.
2. Why?
Why do I get the short straw? I haven't got the looks, brains or charm to be the kind of person that I know I should be. I just want to be different. Don't get me wrong. I love being me. But being me doesn't help to do what I have always wanted to do....
3. When.
It answers itself.
I just hope that one of these days. That person, whether they be my husband, best friend or simply a traveller, they take me away. I can be myself. Which at the current point in the space time continuum, I can't.
Till next time.
